Part of my personal Testimony

In the Desert Place here in New Mexico where I had my “God encounter” in 1999 the week of Easter, I came face to face with my LORD Jesus.

In the first moment when He spoke to me, I heard His Heart cry out in the reality of how He really felt.

Let me explain, by going back and sharing my Testimony. I will need to speak it again, so you can catch the fullness of “What The LORD said to me….”

My Testimony

In 1989 I wandered away from The LORD, and left Him, and was no longer serving Him.

I hate that part, but I must confess, I had left off my Preaching Call and had fled into the desert.

My departure from the Call of God upon my life led me further away from The LORD than I ever intended to go, and deeper into sin than I intended to — and cost me more more than I ever intended to pay.

After many years [more then thirty years] of preaching The Gospel and a Pastor in Churches, I quit, and became very disillusioned with that call.

I simply did not want to have anything to do with being a “Preacher” any more. I was hurt and hindered; I was angry and confused; I was questioning why The LORD had even wanted me to preach — because I had met so many difficulties.

I washed out! I ran away, even as Jonah ran from The LORD’s call, and took a boat going the opposite direction from what The LORD wanted.

For some ten years, I disappeared from all who knew me, and moved away into the Desert Place where I was among people who really did not know me, or who I was, or had been.

I just wanted to do what I wanted to do, for I felt as if The LORD had asked too much of me, and He had failed to help me in the work of preaching.

I did not quit believing in God — I just did not want to serve Him any longer.

I ended up in the same whale’s belly Jonah ended up in. Oh it was not in the sea — and not in a real whale — but I ended up on the backside of The Desert, equally in much distress of soul.

I wandered in that Desert Land, struggling with myself, and went through great difficulty. The heat of the Desert was ‘hot’, when I stumbled and fell into a Desert Canyon that had only one way into it, and I found myself trapped in that Desert Canyon, with no way out except the way I came into it.

I had to come back to the Jesus I had left, for He did stand in the entrance of the Desert Canyon.

There was no place I could go, and no place to run into, even as Jonah could not escape the belly of the whale.

But in God’s Grace and Mercy, vomited me out — and I ran back to Him.

I began to be under such deep conviction that I could not sleep at night.

I was lost, and found myself in a place like a drunk man trying to find the door in a dark room, and I fell down — over and over again.

It was a horrible place to be in, and I did not even know what to do anymore.

I had lost everything in my wayward journey, but I could not even understand just how far I was away and into trouble.

I went to bed one night during the week before Easter 1999 — and I could not sleep.

I kept feeling something in the bed, like sand or rocks. I could not get comfortable and I would turn over, actually trying to find the sand and rocks.

In the midst of this struggle, about 3 a.m. in the morning, I heard The LORD speaking to me, and He said very loud and clear, “What are you going to do now?”

To that I answered Him, “What do you want me to do?”

He said nothing. All was quite — but I knew He was still right there!

Over and over, as I tossed in my bed, He would ask the same question, and I would say, “What do you want me to do?”

On it went into the early morning hours, until literally He said it again, and I cried out very loud into the dark room……. “W h a t do y o u … Wa n t me to doooo????”

He said nothing.

His “nothing” drove me to leave town and go into The Desert Place I had many miles from town. [I had a very remote desert compound where I had found and dug the alabaster stone and was making sculptures to sell to make money].

It was over 20 miles (32Km) into the outback desert of New Mexico, on the end of a road most people would not even call a road. No electricity or water — no neighbors.

That was the week after Easter ’99, and I went out there to my small 5th-wheel RV [Recreational Vehicle] and I begin to Fast and Pray.

I had to know what it was The LORD wanted of me. I had to find answers.

I had bought a new Bible before leaving town, and took very little food, and some water.

I intended to fast, eating almost nothing. I wanted to Fast and Pray, for I knew from past experience with The LORD that when one Fasts and Prays — one finds the answers!

I was crying out, laying on the floor face down, in my open Bible. I would read The Bible — then Pray — over and over again.

I said to The LORD, “I came here to seek You out! For I want to know what it is You want me to do now? I cannot live this way. Please help me!”

Suddenly, there came a very heavy Spirit upon me and that Spirit was so heavy, it mashed [squashed] me into the floor of the trailer.

I could not breathe. My life flashed before me and I thought, “Now He has come to kill me for all my backsliding and sins!”

At the last moment — before I would have died — I thought to Him, (for I could not speak), “LORD, if you don’t let me breathe, I am going to die now!”

Then He let up pressure and I was able to breathe in a huge breath. I knew very keenly, His Divine Presence was there, and at that moment of recovery, I heard Him crying.

“LORD, why are you crying?” I asked?

Then The LORD said, “Why have you done Me this way? Don’t you know I Love you — and I have been right here all this time just waiting for you to come to Me?”

I was shocked. He did not kill me. I deserved it — but I remained in His Presence. He continued speaking and said: “I want you to Love Me, Ken Dewey!

I cannot force you to love Me, for if I did try, it would be Me loving Myself.

You must choose to love Me. There is no other way.

You must choose to Love Me alone. I cannot force you to Love Me!”

He went on to explain that He wanted my Love and Fellowship. He was brokenhearted that I had stopped loving Him, and had stopped My Fellowship with Him. He was crying more.

He begin to talk about how He had desired Adam’s love and fellowship, but one day when He came to talk and fellowship with Adam, but He could not find Adam. “He was hiding,”He said,“from Me.”

“I cried out, “Adam where are you?”

I was brokenhearted with Adam, because He left Me and did not Love Me — nor did He desire to Fellowship with Me.”

He cried more.

“You are like Adam, Ken Dewey. Why did you stop loving Me and Fellowshipping with Me?

I desire that so much,” He said.

Then The LORD explained that He had created Adam for one reason — and that was that Adam would love Him and fellowship with Him.

He said, “I was lonely, and needed someone to Love Me and talk to Me.

I made Adam “like me,” so I could talk to Him, but I purposely put the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil in the Garden with Adam, and told Him not to eat of that tree.

I had to find out if Adam would continue to choose Me and Love Me. So, I put the test before Him.

Adam failed. I was broken in my heart over Him.”

He wept. Then He said, “I had to come up with a plan to redeem Adam back, so I could again fellowship with Him.

I need your Love, Ken Dewey, even as I needed Adam’s Love.

I need your Fellowship with me. I just want to talk to you and walk with you, even as I did with Adam’s Love and Fellowship.”

He cried more……..

For then five whole days, The LORD did speak to me. All day long. He kept on talking and talking to me.

He took me through many Scriptures and explained them to me. It was such a wonderful time with Him. I begin to understand things I had never understood before.

I forgot all about how I had failed Him. I found out that I was forgiven. I was clean inside, and accepted with The LORD again.

He took me in His Arms and just loved me into the night. He held me and loved me.

This is the only way I can explain it……. He held me in His Arms.

I had never felt love like that before!

I found out just how much He Loves me, and just how much He wants me to love Him and talk with Him.

After I came back from this Desert Experience, I could not talk to anyone and tell them about this experience for over 3 months.

Each time I would try to tell someone about this, I would break down and cry.

I still cry a lot, and at times, cannot talk. I am overcome with His Love.

Most people thought I had lost my mind. Many thought I was crazy and needed to be in a hospital.

Most people did not understand why I cried. Some ask me how is it a grown man does cry? A man said to me, “Men don’t cry. Are you a man?”

I soon came to understand that most people do not even believe that there is a God Who Loves men and wants to Fellowship with men.

I have found out many in Churches do not even know about how much God loves them, and do not know that God will talk to them and Fellowship with them.

This is only part of my Testimony.

I had to leave out many details so this Testimony would not be too long — with all things that He said to me from Scripture and personally. If I were to write them all down it would end up a long book.

Since I had this experience, I am not the same man that went into that Desert Place.

My whole life has changed. I am certainly not the Preacher I was back over there. My whole Message has changed.

The spirit and manner of preaching has changed. I go before people to preach and out of my mouth The Spirit speaks. I just need to step back — and let Him talk.

I love Him — because He first loved me!

 

~ Desert Prophet Ken Dewey
The light will shine in His glory… In the desert.

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Evangelist/ Prophet/ Pastor Ken Dewey is the founder of “OUT OF THE DESERT MINISTRIES“ in Belen, New Mexico, USA.
He writes on Facebook and OutOfTheDesertMinistries.com Prophetic Words, Sermons and Teachings while leading people into true Church settings and preaching in an End Time Gospel Tent Ministry.
For more information and messages, please visit OutOfTheDesertMinistries.com.

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