This is another experience. I don’t know if you can relate to this, since I am such a unique individual truly one of a kind!

I learned something about myself last night. Even when you don’t understand what is happening in an apparent failure or let down, know that God is always working all things for our good if we remain humble and teachable and willing to grow and mature in Him.

God has given me a gift of deep worship able to get in His intimate presence and dance. To me, it is my chief joy.

I have always had a hard time getting close to Him, and feeling accepted, because of the spirit of legalism.

God broke down the walls and enabled me to enter into His unconditional Love, but His intimacy doesn’t just flow upward to Him and down to you, it also flows from Him through others in The Body of Christ.

I feel like a young child who has been given the gift of the freedom to enjoy something like how a child gets engrossed in a new toy or game, but then when the mother tries to get their attention, when she wants them to do something else, it is hard to get it.

I need to learn balance, to be able to receive from God through others, and to be aware of when He wants me to move into a different type of Worship.

One night I had a hard time at a Prophetic Conference. We were all worshiping The LORD along with the praise team, and I was dancing so deep in His Presence that the whole Church had already sat down and was ready for the teaching, and I was still in worship!

The teacher had to actually call my name saying, “No more dancing!” I got so embarrassed, and thought I had totally missed it, and actually got offended by this lady!

Last night the same thing happened. I was deep in Worship, and the praise leader started sharing a vision she received during the song.

I couldn’t even make out what she was saying, and it distracted me from my worship.

I thought what she was talking about quenched the anointing, and I left the meeting! I already had a problem, not feeling accepted by the pastor there. So that spirit of rejection opened the door for this to happen, so that I would miss the blessing of what she was saying.

I was still hungry for God and He was still working in me. I came home and watched the video of the meeting I was at, and was able to hear what the lady was saying, and it was a wonderful message from God about a scripture that I love, about how, unless the alabaster box is broken open, the sweet fragrance of His Presence cannot be released!

God was still working in me, and led me to a video on YouTube about the spirit of offense! It was a great teaching and I ordered John Bevere’s book, “The Bait of Satan” about how to get free from the spirit of offense!

I am willing to go back to that Church I went to last night, and overcome rejection.

We must realize that some people just have a personality that can be falsely interpreted as rejection, if you are already battling it.

Iron sharpens iron if we are willing! Unless we remain as little children, we cannot enter into His kingdom. Yes, my life is an open book shared that anyone can learn from it.

“And he said, “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven,”” Matthew 18:3.

 

~ Yolanda Ballard

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Yolanda Ballard of At The Father’s Feet website, shares with you, the body of Christ, the words she’s received quietly sitting at The Father’s feet. I believe Jesus set the example for us to follow. Whenever He could He would come apart from the busyness of the world so that He could quiet Himself before The Father, for that is where He received direction and strength to carry out His will.

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