When suffering and testing continues and there seems to be no letup, your whole spiritual being can come to a halt.

We used to say in times back, if you keep trying to do something over and again and it’s not working, you might need to consider that there is a reason for that. You push and push and work at it with all you have — but it just won’t go forward.

I have become fully persuaded that most of us are going to have to go back to simple basics. Stop butting our heads against the wall and just politely sit down. Couldn’t we be missing something here?

It’s been said before, that if you can’t be a good bit honest on here about what’s going on with you, you likely won’t help others much.

I mean, how long must you be in the floor wrestling, hurting all over, crying and pleading for an answer?

Well, for me, it’s been as long as it takes. I’ve learned again recently that often times, God has given us the answer — but it’s not at all what we want or thought we needed to hear.

We all have our certain place to walk in this journey and some situations can seem to take the life out of you.

What’s to be said about these trials, tests and life on life’s terms that bring us to total dependence on Him?

What about learning to trust Him, when it’s likely that there is nothing or no one else you can trust?

Let’s not try to judge someone else’s journey, another person’s struggle — whatever it may be.

Most all the time, we don’t know even half of someone’s circumstances. And we are somewhat foolish and cold-hearted to say what we would do, when we have never even been in that particular place ourselves. How could we?

Alright. He’s asked me to do something I absolutely do not want to do.

I’ve suffered greatly at the hands of a certain situation until I just cannot take it anymore. I can’t tolerate it and I don’t want to.

Well, one might ask, then why don’t you just get out of it and get away from whatever it is and be finished?

Don’t worry, I’ve had my own therapies and self-healing courses and may I say calmly, that I have worked on my issues.

Let me go a step further and say, I’ve worked, cried and prayed about me more than I ever have in all my life.

Why? I want to be better and do what He has called me to do!

It’s taken continually being brokenhearted about something, for me to begin to realize how many times Jesus was brokenhearted.

I once said that we need to let Jesus be a human being. No matter how much He loved and how much good He did, there were those who constantly chased after Him.

They followed Him around just for the purpose of trying to catch Him saying something wrong, doing something they could accuse Him of.

Critical, demeaning, nasty, trying to trap Him in something and prove Him a hoax. It’s no wonder He turned on them in anger and called them out openly.

There’s something I’ve come to know recently. It’s being real enough with God to tell him that I can’t do something. Like He doesn’t know that?

He assured me, more than once, that He will give me the strength to continue. This is the challenge I have. That I will trust Him when I don’t see anyway possible to do it.

May I say that I don’t have that kind of Faith sometimes. But I have reminded myself enough to say, “God, you know exactly where I am, you know what I’m going through. You see everything; you know my heart.”

See, God has not revealed my next step. I have to wait!

Many of us have been through about everything a human can go through and still live. We are more ready and prepared now than we ever could be before.

I told God that many of us are weary; He has to move soon.

Listen. He has told me that He will not wait much longer to act.

King David was honest with God. I’m not him, but my own walk has allowed me to do the same.

It’s all about just how much you love Him, how much you talk to Him and how much He talks to you.

What level in the Spirit can you find access to that?

What about Him giving us the desires of our heart?

Hasn’t it taken all of this awful sickness, this sadness and suffering, this heartbreak and rejection and loss, to become more like Him?

I know what I want from God, don’t you?

He promised it. But before what I’ve waited for so long comes to pass, can I be sure of one thing.

What is number one with me?

Following the lead of The Holy Ghost, no matter what. Making the supernatural visitation of His Spirit and that realm forever settled, and never letting go of the events and manifestation of His Power and Presence of these past years. Using the gifts of The Spirit I was given, and always giving Him the Glory.

 

~ Robert Blackburn

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Robert Blackburn

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